So I’m not pregnant, I am tired but with my life I should be. =) I have resolved that my mother was spot on suggesting I had retained water after binging on salty snacks and therefore had two days of constant peeing. And Cici’s is to blame for the gas I am sure. The oddness of the pressure, well that’s likely just a result of how my body is now. I mean I am 40 for goodness sake and Niki’s pregnancy and birth made for many unwelcome changes to my body. But she is the sweetest girl and worth all of it.
I do wonder if I really screwed something up in my rear-end when I mattress surfed with the kids because that was March 27th and I still have a lot of pain at times on my left bum cheek. No too excited to have that checked out. I do need to make time to get that video uploaded to AFV.
I listenened to a FABULOUS sermon this morning by Robert Emmitt on Crisis Pregnancy. The takeaway from it was simply to pray, get support and have the child. I was amazed at some of the people he mentioned that had or were crisis pregnancies. President Obama, Faith Hill, Steve Jobs, Eleanor Roosevelt, Justin Beiber and the founder of Wendy’s are some he named and of course Mary, Joseph and Jesus. Praise God! The sermon also personally relieved pressure off of me that if I should ever become pregnant again, there would be not one worry, only complete faith and gratitude to Jesus Christ for the most precious blessing and gift.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
YES – I am/don’t know/not pregnant
I feel like I am pregnant, but I got fixed on 4.9.2010 so I’m not and never will be again. I had brown miniscule droplets that tinged the toilet paper when I wiped 3 days ago, but I took a test at lunch today and I’m not. I had to pee 20 times each on Saturday and Sunday and I have gas (and therefore a dull ache) that keeps getting stuck on what I believe to be my backwards tilting pregnant uterus, but today is only day 14 of my cycle so I’m not.
This is going to be a very long week and a half until I start my cycle. I do feel very intune to my body but my brain knows that I am not pregnant. My brain reasons that this and all the other months I have ever felt/thought I was pregnant is my purgatory. My tell tale heart. Thump, thump. Thump, thump. Thump, thump.
I even went as far as to ask Jaime this morning what she would have done if we had put Niki up for adoption to a very loving, needy, childless couple. She said “I wouldn’t let you. They could adopt a different child.” So I asked her thoughts if we were to adopt and she said it might be weird for the first week but then normal.
I have read the sites I obsessed over when TTC and my own blog from Niki’s birth and think I may have to test again in a couple days. My bum is uncomfortable from the gas. I “know” I am pregnant. Maybe it’s an tubal pregnancy and my tube will burst and I’ll die. This is getting serious. =)
PS – The due date is 2.2.12
This is going to be a very long week and a half until I start my cycle. I do feel very intune to my body but my brain knows that I am not pregnant. My brain reasons that this and all the other months I have ever felt/thought I was pregnant is my purgatory. My tell tale heart. Thump, thump. Thump, thump. Thump, thump.
I even went as far as to ask Jaime this morning what she would have done if we had put Niki up for adoption to a very loving, needy, childless couple. She said “I wouldn’t let you. They could adopt a different child.” So I asked her thoughts if we were to adopt and she said it might be weird for the first week but then normal.
I have read the sites I obsessed over when TTC and my own blog from Niki’s birth and think I may have to test again in a couple days. My bum is uncomfortable from the gas. I “know” I am pregnant. Maybe it’s an tubal pregnancy and my tube will burst and I’ll die. This is getting serious. =)
PS – The due date is 2.2.12
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Let's test this - Post something via email and then go in and change the posted date
A little excel test too =)
Growth Chart | ||||||
Birth | 2 Days | 2 Weeks | 1 Month | 2 Months | 4 Months | |
Nicole Lynn | 6#10 | 6#4 | 7#4 | 8#10 | 10#7 | 12#12 |
1.12.10 1249pm | 19" | - | 19.75" | 20.5" | 21.25" | 24# |
Apgar | - | - | 36.2cm | 37.25cm | 38.9cm | 41.1cm |
Joseph James | ||||||
3.24.06 | ||||||
Apgar | ||||||
Sabrina Megan | ||||||
7.30.97 | ||||||
Apgar | ||||||
Jaimeson Michiel | 5#13 | |||||
7.29.97 12:00pm | 18" | |||||
Apgar | ||||||
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Viki S. Dalbo
Office Manager - Emptoris, Inc.
www.emptoris.com - Office: 703.995.6000 - Cell: 703.401.5360
Office Manager - Emptoris, Inc.
www.emptoris.com - Office: 703.995.6000 - Cell: 703.401.5360
E-mail: viki.dalbo@rivermine.com – Skype: vikidalbo
Monday, May 4, 2009
An awakening of sorts - dedicated to my stepsister
I guess I am still in the testing phase of this "blogging" thing. I hope to spend a little more time on it and then regularly (weekly?) update it. To quote Rascal Flatts..."Sometimes it feels like this world is spinning faster Than it did in the old days". Everyone's busy fitting life into the finite hours we have each day - hopefully this will keep us connected a little better than before.This is definitely a personal and emotional blog...I have lost someone that I never really "had" and actually hardly even knew....my stepsister, Taunia Halcrow Oechslin. By my best recollections, we hung out twice in our lives, twenty-five some odd years ago. The first time was for just the afternoon, in Fairfax, VA, at the batting cages I think. The second was at her Grandma's in Drayton, ND. That doesn't mean I didn't think or care about her or that she had no effect on my life....far from it.
Ever have those times - when people come to mind, that you haven't thought of in a while, or with no true prompts at the time? You know? Out of the blue, as they say? It happened to me, and very recently. I will research my history and find the exact date, because I do that - off topic - one day I was obsessed with finding out the song that was played on Friends during the final show where Rachel "got off the plane" and came back to Ross - guess what...it was the anniversary of the original air date of the Finale - yes freaky - well I think so anyways - so yes I will research my history to find out when I went looking for my stepsister on facebook. Unfortunately, for the grief I feel now, I was looking up the wrong name AND I didn't google her. So is it fair to say God was working a little here - I think so because I had such a strong, unprompted desire to reach out to her...now the questioning...was she thinking of me at that moment and that was to be our connection, possibly, or maybe we actually weren't meant to actually connect, because that might have been to painful or upsetting for Taun during her last week. I just can't help FEELING though that the feeling wasn't for nothing.
So how does a stepsister you've seen/meet twice have an impact on your life.....read on....earlier this morning I was walking and talking with friend and told her - I think I live my life the way I do in part because of the relationship Taun and I DIDN'T share. If you know me, you know I adore family, always wanted one, always trying to create one, always trying to join one :-) I just think they are they greatest tribute to love which is of course "the greatest of all things" AND we always want what we don't have. I didn't have a relationship with Taun. I always thought that for her and I to have a relationship it wouldn't sit well with the adults in our lives, but that didn't stop me from explaining my life story to anyone who'd listen.....i have a half-brother and a stepsister - neither one living with me and unfortunately neither one of them in touch with me either :-( So guess what? I created the identical situation and have vowed (literally, to the justice of the peace)to make it work - I have jaime, sabrina and joey - and you know i adore them. I've even had multiple conversations with the girls and told them how I really want all of us to get along and treat each other well because I wasn't able to do that with my brother and sister. So Taun will live on, forever more, in my family.
I also have to mention that I have learned so much about my stepsister this morning after googling her - she was an amazing person, she was giving and caring and worked with the community to truly make the world a better place. I am so proud of her and definitely missed out not knowing her. I am so sad for her husband, and young son, and her extended family, and for their loss. I now know how huge it was. Taunia, you are an true inspriation! I know you are in Heaven! God Bless Your Soul.
http://www.windbercare.com/girlsnightout.ASP
http://ourtownonline.biz/articles/2007/01/17/expo/sample05.txt
http://www.tribdem.com/local/local_story_054233540.html
http://www.dailyamerican.com/articles/2007/10/19/news/news239.txt
http://www.legacy.com/tribune-democrat/Obituaries.asp?Page=Notice&PersonID=126042253
Ever have those times - when people come to mind, that you haven't thought of in a while, or with no true prompts at the time? You know? Out of the blue, as they say? It happened to me, and very recently. I will research my history and find the exact date, because I do that - off topic - one day I was obsessed with finding out the song that was played on Friends during the final show where Rachel "got off the plane" and came back to Ross - guess what...it was the anniversary of the original air date of the Finale - yes freaky - well I think so anyways - so yes I will research my history to find out when I went looking for my stepsister on facebook. Unfortunately, for the grief I feel now, I was looking up the wrong name AND I didn't google her. So is it fair to say God was working a little here - I think so because I had such a strong, unprompted desire to reach out to her...now the questioning...was she thinking of me at that moment and that was to be our connection, possibly, or maybe we actually weren't meant to actually connect, because that might have been to painful or upsetting for Taun during her last week. I just can't help FEELING though that the feeling wasn't for nothing.
So how does a stepsister you've seen/meet twice have an impact on your life.....read on....earlier this morning I was walking and talking with friend and told her - I think I live my life the way I do in part because of the relationship Taun and I DIDN'T share. If you know me, you know I adore family, always wanted one, always trying to create one, always trying to join one :-) I just think they are they greatest tribute to love which is of course "the greatest of all things" AND we always want what we don't have. I didn't have a relationship with Taun. I always thought that for her and I to have a relationship it wouldn't sit well with the adults in our lives, but that didn't stop me from explaining my life story to anyone who'd listen.....i have a half-brother and a stepsister - neither one living with me and unfortunately neither one of them in touch with me either :-( So guess what? I created the identical situation and have vowed (literally, to the justice of the peace)to make it work - I have jaime, sabrina and joey - and you know i adore them. I've even had multiple conversations with the girls and told them how I really want all of us to get along and treat each other well because I wasn't able to do that with my brother and sister. So Taun will live on, forever more, in my family.
I also have to mention that I have learned so much about my stepsister this morning after googling her - she was an amazing person, she was giving and caring and worked with the community to truly make the world a better place. I am so proud of her and definitely missed out not knowing her. I am so sad for her husband, and young son, and her extended family, and for their loss. I now know how huge it was. Taunia, you are an true inspriation! I know you are in Heaven! God Bless Your Soul.
http://www.windbercare.com/girlsnightout.ASP
http://ourtownonline.biz/articles/2007/01/17/expo/sample05.txt
http://www.tribdem.com/local/local_story_054233540.html
http://www.dailyamerican.com/articles/2007/10/19/news/news239.txt
http://www.legacy.com/tribune-democrat/Obituaries.asp?Page=Notice&PersonID=126042253
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